I'm paralyze in grief! </3 </3 </3
How can my heart keep beating when it's shattered in a Trillion pieces?
To never look into my son's sweet eyes again while on this planet.
My SON you are my everything and you've returned in the hands of God. 
No one sees you like I do only you're mama.

I composed and played this piano piece for my boy Sadhu when he was a puppy all happy chasing butterflies and hummingbirds in our front yard.
Back in the days of very happy and peaceful-times.
His piano piece is really called 'Piano Lullaby for Sadhu'.
My boy was next to me in my studio when I wrote and recorded his piano piece.

http://richiebugatti.bandcamp.com/track/piano-lullaby-for-my-dog-2

I was listening and studying so called the new Michael Jackson 'Xscape' album.
Producers L.A. Reid, Timbaland, Rodney Jerkins, Stargate, & John McClain trying to capture MJ's GENIUS, Yeah Right! 
And JT is not MJ.
In my opinion these talented producers failed to capture MJ's raw edge that only MJ had.
Though there's good songs in it I did not like the 'Xscape' album because it's missing MJ's edge and genius! Nice try though. 
This new 'Xscape' album would have captured MJ's talent if MJ himself would have seen this project through from beginning to end.
Very shocked that Jermaine Jackson agrees with me! DANG!!!

Haha! 

I had a dream I was Fred Astaire dancing with Ginger Rogers to a original swing time piece I composed for my BIG BAND orchestra 1930s STYLE!
I woke up feeling great!!! =)))
Fred Astaire is the most BADASS dancer ever but Ginger Rogers was more so bc she had to keep up with him in heels and dancing backwards! 

 

Remembering my BADASS NEMESIS 'Kurt Cobain' been dead for 20 years now.
I personally believe he died on 04/04! =''(
Back in the day I lived in Seattle signed to Indie label 55th street records and studio.
My label wanted me to sound like Nirvana and Pearl Jam and stay producing.
They and other labels wouldn't let do my own original music so I quit MUSIC for a long time, also me being a sound engineer I became a computer tech, which is easy for me then got burnt out.
Was forced back into MUSIC and was accepted with open arms!
I will never quit MUSIC again, it's all I do full-time. =)
And agree with Kurt's thoughts on playing live. Ooops hope my fans don't get PO. ;)

CONGRATS! to Steven Price for winning an Oscar for Best Original Score 'Gravity'!!!
Great music and movie! ;)

Will I be a Professor at 'Berklee College of Music's' electronic production & sound design? NOPE! =P
Can't right now bc of my condition.
Even if I could, maybe when I'm 75 yrs old. ;)
Recording my electronic experiment albums take way too much time to teach.
I dig creating new sounds/composing/recording/producing etc...
Already started my 2nd experimental album called 'Ning Ning' while working on my 1st singer/songwriter album 'Plastic Flamingos'. Me good right now. ;)

WOW!!! you all know I'm a classical-pianist/composer/producer/engineer, synthesizer is my main axe not piano. 
Playing piano gets boring. 
I used 4 workstations & a few real instruments on my last experimental album. 
I want this workstation, can do everything on it!
It has a 22" MAC TOUCH SCREEN with a LOGIC STUDIO PRO X!!!
Going to check it out!  

                                    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XVYottxegpI